Is Love really out there?

So, up until the last couple days I have been a hopeless romantic. Love is out there for everyone! You two will find each other! Once you are together and experience that 'togetherness' you will be together forever! .....As of this moment that is not the case anymore.

I don't know if it is the people I have been meeting, my own thoughts and actions, I don't know. But I really am starting to wonder if Love is out there for everyone. Love is such a fantastic thing-I know it's cliche, but when you have love, it is like a drug. Like air. Love is such a powerful thing that can never fully be replaced by anything-without it you have a void that can grow bigger and bigger as the time goes by. And unfortunately, most people become jaded because of it.

Everyone deserves to find that special someone. The one person to come home to each night. That one person who doesn't mind your flaws and can see how great you are. The one person that will never want to leave you, but does everyone morning to make a living so that you can be comfortable. That one person who wants to spend time together-who writes random loving notes on the mirror. That one person that you are meant to be with. But what if they don't exist? What if you two never find each other? I know it sounds like a lack of faith, but in all reality, these are fair questions. Is Love really out there?

Awesomeness!

So the past couple of days have been incredible! Good friends, good conversation, good food. What else could a guy as for? :-)

Can I get a free potato?

So this past weekend I went to Idaho with half of my Toscano family: Katie, Alyssa, and Kathy. Why Idaho you ask? Because Grandma was there of course! Anyway, we had a grand ol' time on the drive up there-spotted a rainbow or two.

We had a an awesome weekend-very relaxing and full of laughs.

We made dinner: Stuffed shells, italian chicken, salad, and better than "anything" cake. LOL.

Overall, a very successful and very happy weekend. Good friends. Good food. Good time. I hope to do it again :-)

And by the way, I didn't get a free potato...

Courage

So yesterday, I finally got the courage to ask someone on a date. A miracle right?! I might be good in a relationship, but when it comes the dating aspect-let's just say I need lessons or something. Anyway, I'm very excited! And if you have not guess yet, they said "Sure!"

Sometimes we need a little push to do something that is scary. Sometimes the push is a talk with a friend, Advice from a parent, Or someone literally pushes you into a situation. The next step in these situations is finding the courage within yourself. That God given courage and light. The courage that only YOU can find within yourself. Find your courage and take on the world!

Stand up tall. Don't be Ashamed.
Cameron

Epic Failure Recant

So tonight (saturday night, technically I'm writing this sunday morning...) I tried the whole social thing again. Same group, different activity. First there was a little backyard social-which was really fun. And yes, I actually talked to people! I know, surprised me too. Second, we went to a gymnastics gym. It was REALLY fun! Foam pits, trampolines, bars, beams, bouncy floors! It made me miss gymnastics and realize that I'm a chicken and afraid to get hurt. LOL. And finally, third: went to DEEs and talked some more! For some stupid reason, I actually ate food. That I could have lived without. But also, I think I'm starting to crush...so we will see how things go. But overall tonight was a definite success! I let my light so shine, and had a blast. Hopefully in the future, it will glow brighter and brighter!

Total and EPIC FAILURE

Do you ever look back at your life and wonder where that person went? Over time we all change, sometimes only a little, sometimes alot. I went to a social thing last night (all by myself-bad idea!). I honestly tried my best to be out going and personable. But I just ended up sitting there only talking occasionally...When it was all done and time to go home, I seriously could have rolled up in ball in a blanket and cried-well, if I would have let myself. I could feel myself shrinking. Everyone has a light inside them, right? And sometimes you can control how much you exute. As the night went on, I could feel my light dim until is was only a glowing ember. I tried to fuel it and shine brighter, with no success. Who is this shy person that gets extreme anxiety when it's time to socialize with new people? Where did Cameron go? The guy that was very out going, personable, friendly, talkative? I'm not sure. Have the past two and half years crushed me that much? I wish I knew what to do. I am trying to put myself out there, and I end up getting crushed even more. Last night was a total and epic failure.

Lessons Learned....again.

So yesterday I was talking to people who brought some perspective in my life. They reminded me of life lessons that I have learned before, but should constantly be reminded of:

Live and go by the SPIRIT of the law, rather than the LETTER of the law.
Judgement is a huge negative in any relationship-whether it is established or forming. This should be applied to EVERYDAY LIFE, to EVERYONE you encounter.

Another lesson I learned was "Let your light so shine before this people" 3 Nephi12:16
EVERYONE has light inside them. They have their own talents, compassion, and abilities. No matter who you are, you have something to offer the world. Let your light shine. Whether you believe it's from God to You to Others. Or from You to Others. Just let it shine.This goes along with another lesson:

BE YOURSELF, whoever it is. No one can be a better YOU than YOU!
Be yourself around everyone you meet. Some won't like you, some will. But at least you were honest to yourself and God. Don't hide. Don't change who you are according to which group you are with today. Just be YOU. ALL THE TIME.

Anyway, these are the lessons that I was reminded of yesterday. These are the lessons I constantly need to be reminded of. They are the Lessons Learned....again.

Much Love,
Cameron