True or not...

So whether it's true or not I feel like I am a destroyer of lives-or at least a big contributor. I feel like I let people down all the time, especially my parents. They taught me well and gave me all the tools to succeed but I didn't follow them. I am not their perfect son. I feel like I have failed them because I am not going on a mission.

I have caused pain and anguish to many people especially the past couple years. I want to tell them all that I am sorry. I can't take back what I have done, but I can apologize. And I hope that that will be good enough.

Today as I drove to school, I almost got in a car crash. If we would have crashed, it would have been completely my fault and I guarantee that both the girl and I would have gotten hurt.

Everything has been going really well lately, but for some reason 'The Deceiving one' has gotten to me this morning.

Once again I wish to I'm sorry for all and any pain that I have caused people, especially the people who actually follow this. PLEASE let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do to make up for it.

-Cameron

3 in the morning...

I know that I had set my blog to private so whoever is reading this would not have to read my depressing rants. But this morning I realized what's the point in that? Yes I might write a lot of negative things on here, but if I block it how can I share any of the good?!

So it is now almost 3 in the morning. I just finished reading my scriptures and my saying my prayers. While I was accomplishing these things I could not help but feel all warm and fuzzy inside-a swelling of love, thankfulness, and dare I say it-joy! Here is a recap of the last few days of my week:

Monday: Sang at FHE (went well), hopefully gained some fans for when I make my demo and cd (cross your fingers).

Tuesday: Had a GREAT 'voice' lesson with Jim-we talked for an hour and twenty min about confidence, inferiority, and self-esteem. I also had my first rehearsal for Forever Plaid Tidings (I got the part!).

Wednesday: Stressed out (freak out attack), performed in class (went well), and studied my guts out.

One of the main things I am really thankful for this week is for my talk with Jim. Everyone is human and we cannot all measure up on the same yardstick. I wish I could have recorded the whole conversation and typed it up. It was awesome! Hopefully next week I will also sing at my voice lesson :0)

So far I LOVE working on Forever Plaid Tidings! It's my first big part out of high school, and it's going to be a 'pee-your-pants' funny show.

Anyway, I hope all of that will scramble together and make some kind of sense to whoever reads this thing.

-Cameron